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Name: Tonya
Birthday: 7/19/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Soccer,
People,
Dance,
Exercise,
Serving,
I miss my friends from PA
Expertise: hmm just loving people
i'll be your friend if you need one
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Occupation: Other
Industry: Hospitality
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Member Since:
3/4/2005
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| Galations 6:8 - "The one who sows to please the sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction, the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life." Luke 23:46 - "Father into your hands I comitt my spirit." Do not focus on the things of this world. Do not focus on your surrounding, but just keep your eyes fixed on me!!! Oh God....The blaze in your gaze is drawing me into you. I'm being chased by the very one that I pursue! I can do nothing aside from you. Jesus thank you for all the gifts you have given me and all that you are giving to me even now. God I ask for more revelation, discernment, and wisdom. In the silence...in the waiting....will you have mercy on my ears so I can hear your voice. I want to know your mysteries and secrets. I want to know more of your heart for me and your people. Lord I pray that I will not fall into temptation. - Luke 22:40 I desire to take heed to your every word. I don't want to miss the "burning bush" Lord have mercy on my eyes...that I may see where you're leading me, and who you want me to serve. Oh God, place in me your heart for your people!!! Clothe me with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, patience, and love...May the peace of Christ rule in my heart. - Colossians 3:12-15 God I want to minister to you!!! Renew my mind, and create in my a clean heart. Renew a right spirit with in me. in Jesus Holy Name...AMEN | | |
| So it's been way to long since i've written on xanga....sorry everyone!!! I have moved to a new place. I'm living with a friend of mine now her name is Dashia. I also have a new job working with her in a dog kennel, which is right here on her property owned by her parents. I got bit by a dog yesterday on my left hand....it's numb and really sore/bruised. It's hard to move my thumb. Hmmmm......i've met new friends and am being sooo blessed by them as well. God is just doing awesome things in my heart/life! I'm going to be leaving soon on june 27th for the rainbow gathering and then i'm going to "THE CALL" in Nashville Tennesee for the national day of repetence as a nation. After that i'll be coming back to PA for about 8 days...only to leave again for Liberia, Africa for another 12 days :) So i'm going to have a really full month of July, but it's going to be awesome and i am so excited to see what the Lord does is my heart especially and in so many others!!! Praise the Lord!!!! The Lord has been teaching me many things. Along the lines of he is the only one that complete us. Other people can compliment us, but Christ is the only completor and he is the only one that we can find complete fullfillment in! I've started on this new Journey with the Lord. Just him and I, and i am learning and being drawn closer. It's awesome :) well God Bless You everyone!!! | | |
| Well i would have to say it's been way to long since i've written on xanga  So forgive me for my absence.....Thank You! I have def. been experience a lot lately and going through a lot just in my daily walk with the Lord, but one thing i wanted to share with everyone was a revelation I had on Monday night. The Lord just revealed himself to me in a very deep way......I was roller blading around with one of my friends at her house. Then she said to me, "Lets ask the Lord to reveal himself to us, right now, even while we are roller blading." So i said, "Yea, that would be great. Lets do it!" So we asked the Lord and then continued to roller blade for a little around on her property. Soon i layed down on the ground in silence, and she sat on a rock. Before i knew it she was right beside me, asking if she could join me on the ground. I said, "yea, with a smile" We prayed for each others families together, and then once again went into complete silence. It was at that moment the Lord gave me a vision!!! I WAS LYING IN A MEADOW WITH THE LORD!!!! Me as his bride and him as my groom. I was sharing my heart with him, and just talking to him about anything and everything. The awesome thing was he was looking at me with such focus and attention. You could tell he was listening and cared about me and what i was saying. He had a continual smile on his face as well. Then I was listening to him speak. It was as if he was teaching me and sharing with me his wisdom and quiding me. I was soooo hungry and willing to listen and obey, and gain more wisdom. I wanted to do what he said and asked of me. See in the vision it was like i was in an intimate relationship with the Lord. We really loved each other, you could tell! He was also my protector in my vision. The Lord gave me the corrolation/meaning to the vision as well. Just think if you could make the picture perfect (husband) in my case. Make him look the way you wanted him to look have all the qualities ect ect ect. that you wanted him to have. That is what the Lord did with us....he is our creator. I mean come on, the Lord made us exactly like he wanted us to be. We are his picture perfect bride. He desires us, just like we would desire our earthly husbands, except the Lord is perfect and times 10... :) Now that to me is breath taking. It is sooo amazing and makes me feel very loved, precious, and wanted. Now also think about how your earthly husband would want to give you everything he had. No matter what, he wants to give you the best. Well multiply that by infinity and that is what the Lord wants for you. He is sooooo much in love with you that he wants to give you everything......WAY COOL!!!!! and that is very possible if we allow it, b/c everything belongs to the Lord. Next coming to how i so closely was listening to the Lord. Imagine an earthly husband that you love so much, respect so much, honor so much, want to submit to, want to obey and following his wisdom that he has. That is how it was for me in my vision, and now how it has become so real to me in my life. I love the Lord sooo much intimately and have a deeper understanding of his love for me, so i just desire to love,respect, honor, talk good about him, submit to him, obey his guidance and learn learn learn even more. Lastly think about how your earthly husband would do anything for you to protect you from harms way. He would take a bullet for you! Well that is how it was in my vision, it was like the Lord was saying, "NO WAY, SATAN, YOU CAN'T TOUCH HER, SHE'S MINE....SHE'S SO BEAUTIFUL, AND I DON'T WANT HER HARMED, I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO HER!!!!" isn't that amazing, b/c the Lord has all authority and power over satan, which means we've already won the battle. This is how real and true the Lord's love for us is. It's not comparable to an earthly relationship, but if you corralate it to an earthly relathionship it gives you the understand of how even way more great the Lord is, and how incredibley powerful the Lord is compared to man here on earth. It's good to know i'm loved and desired by the Lord, b/c i'm in very good hands/arms then :) In God's eyes i'm the best and i'm his perfect bride!!!! Praise the Lord, thank you for the deeper revelation of you Lord. I will never be the same again. Oh wow the Lord is sooooo good, i feel amazing right now like my dream of meeting the most encredible husband has just come true. These are things i've heard before, but the Lord never revealed it sooo strongly like he did in this vision. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!! anyways i hope you could connect and that you understood what i was talking about. God Bless. Have a great day :) Love Always, Tonya | | |
| I posted recently what i had on my heart to write, called My Angel, for Lee....well keeping that in mind i had one incredible dream sent right from the Lord!!!! Let me share it with you :) One night i was not having a good evening at all. My mom and I were sort of in a little "not talking" mood. So i ended up going to bed really early b/c i was dealing with so much in my life on top of grieving over Lee's death, and i just couldn't think about it anymore. I just couldn't bare it all. I wanted to just sleep and forget it all and be able to rest. I was tired of carrying my "burden". Well let me tell you the Lord def. gave me what i needed through a dream. In my dream i was sitting in a living room in someones house, and my whole Hess side of my family was there along with a lot of my friends. We were handing out gifts. Everyone was getting these significant/ meaningful gifts. Well it came to me and i recieved this HUGE box! I opened it up and inside was tons of black barby looking dolls. I was thinking ok how is this meaningful at all. I didn't understand i was too old to play with dolls, and why were there so many?!?! Well they way i look at it was it was symbolic. In real life Africa has def. been upon my heart. I was prophecied over that I was going to go to Africa and help little children in Africa, and help girls with going through healing b/c of what they've been through. To me that part of my dream ment a lot to me being awake, b/c it was symbolic for my passion and what's going to happen in Africa some day :) How cool is that?!?! Moving on....................Through out my dream there were these moments where i would fall to ground just wheeping, b/c i couldn't handle the pain, i couldn't handle my struggles in life, and most of all i missed Lee sooooo much! Me and a friend of mine ended up getting into a van and driving away for a little while b/c i just needed to get away while the rest of the Hess family still stayed and mingled. We drove to this train station, and while we were at the train station the most amazing thing happened in my dream. There was white refrigerator and we were just about to leave the station. I was wheeping from my sadness and I just wanted to give up....i was SOOOOO DONE!!! I went to the refigerator and opened up the freezer door, at that instant Lee's face appeared to me. I can't explain it...even though it was a dream, it was sooo real all at the same time. Lee's face appeared and he stuck out his hand and took held of mine and said to me, " Tonya, i know ur hurting, and i know ur going through a lot right now, but I want you to know that I love you, and that everything is going to be ok....all you have to do is put your trust in the Lord and he will take care of everything!" Then just like that he was gone. I woke up from that dream in tears. B/c it was sooo cool how i had written "My Angel" for Lee and then he appeared to me in my dream as My Angel!!! I know the Lord gave me that dream to help me through this...The Lord knew just what i needed :)
So i just want all of you to know The Lord is awesome and the spiritual realm is soooo real. Don't be afraid to allow the Lord to show you things through the the spiritual realm. A lot goes on in the spiritual realm that is sooo powerful and we all need to be awakened to it, b/c we can fight as warriors for Christ in that spiritual realm....we can also be shown something that is so helpful or encouraging through that way. Anways thanks for taking the time to read this :) I just wanted to share with everyone how a dream from the Lord like this impacted me sooo GREATLY!!! I love you all and God Bless,
Tonya
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| Hmmmm......life and it's excitment. Do you ever feel like you're sick and tired of things messing up? You're sick and tired of having to try sooo hard to be strong and keep a smile on ur face? You just want life to be a little less stressful, and have more things go right than wrong? Do you ever feel like, ok "I'm done being strong, i'm done smiling, I just need to cry and break down.....I need to really let it out and be known that i'm not happy, i'm having a hard time being strong, and i'm just sick and tired of trying soooo hard" Well that's been me recently. But then i get this e-mail about 9/11 and how this guy got a stain on his shirt and had to go back and change, which kept him from being in world trade center. It was this lady's turn to get coffee so she was late to work and was saved in the end, and on and on and on the little stories go. In the end of the e-mail i read when life is going that way....all these little things are happening that frustrate you sooo much. Just think maybe the Lord is saving you from a bigger pain, and bigger accident, something a lot worse. Then i also remember wow my life is going soo much better than so many other peoples. What do i have to complain about?! Also, the Lord has truely been there the whole way to always help me through and for that i am thankful!!!! I have also learned sooooo much through my lifes struggles, hurt and pain, and for that i thank the Lord. What i would like to say is for all of you that are having a hard time in life right now or grieving or experience a lot of hurt and you just can't fight anymore....you just want to break down give up and cry. You're tired of being strong. Just look to the Lord, and remember all of your blessings....remember you may actually have been saved from something a lot worse. All you have to do is HAVE FAITH!!!!
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